Everything is About to Change

The fog was so thick this morning, we had to squint our eyes to see as we made our way down the sidewalk on the way to school.

Today was Anna’s first day of school. That’s right, she is officially in Pre-K!!! After months and months of trying to get her in, and calling and emailing about 100 different people, a spot finally opened up a few days ago, allowing her to be admitted into the Pre-K program. We signed the paperwork yesterday and, after what felt like waiting for forever, suddenly things started moving very quickly, and now, she isn’t here at home as I type this.

It’s a weird mix of emotions. On one end, we’re so excited for her to get the socialization and structure she will get from going to school every day. On the other end, not having her with us all day every day is quite…sad, to put it simply.

As we were brushing our teeth last night, I turned to PJ and said, “Oh wait. I’m actually really sad she’s starting school tomorrow? I can’t believe she won’t be home with us anymore.” It’s like it was all hitting me at once and setting in that our days are going to look a lot different from here on out. For the first time in almost 4 years, we won’t have any kids at home with us during the day.

We tried to put her in a daycare program years ago, but that didn’t end up working out. She wasn’t ready, and to be honest, I don’t know if we were either. She’s been by our side on our day to day errands for the last three and a half years, always going into stores with us, coming out to the farm with us to meet contractors, helping to feed the animals, going to the gym while we work out. All of it. Everything we’ve done, she’s been right there the whole time.

Now though, it’s just the two of us. All three of our kids are officially in school full time from here on out. It’s a bittersweet time, but we’re so excited about our family’s new schedule and what it means for all of us. I can just picture us being able to get more work accomplished during the day, workout at the gym on a more consistent schedule, and so much more. The possibilities are endless!!

Now the only question that keeps popping into my head is, how will we spend our first day alone?